Yesterday I found out a very old and close friend was in a horrible wreck and passed away. To say things have been an emotional tornado would be an understatement. Right now I am all over the place and a basket full of emotions and feelings that I don’t know how to fully process yet.
What has been so hard is the fact that for various reasons, me and my friend had not talked for awhile. She had been having some difficulties in her life and kind of disappeared. Well out of the blue my sister saw her last Friday, got her phone number from her and passed it along to me. I was so ready to reconnect and put things behind us and start from scratch…I mean this had been my main squeeze since 6th grade, she was in my wedding and I was there holding her hand when she had her first child. We had a ton of history behind us and not talking for a few months was not going to stop our friendship from growing.
Well I was unable to get in touch with her over the weekend, when a mutual friend contacted me yesterday to tell me she had been in a freak accident leaving her house and was killed. I literally felt my heart break into a million pieces… It dawned on me; I would never get a chance to talk to her, mend things over, and just give her a hug to let her know the past is the past.
I know my friend and I know she would never want me or anyone else to sit around in sadness thinking about her passing. She would want us to celebrate her life with smiles, laughter and lots of good times!! From the words of one of my favorite songs…..
Dip your feet into the ocean.
Let the sun beat on your skin.
Soak in every emotion,
that you never thought you'd live.
And never take for granted,
every breath you're breathing in.
Go everywhere you've never been,
Everyday, live it like it's your last one.
Ever kiss, kiss it like it's your first love.
If i had one wish; then I would wish
that you would live today like
Everyday, Everyday is your last one.