Disappointment...

This week has been soooooooooo trying!! A few weeks ago I had received some exciting news, that I had received some extra money to be used toward my education. I was beyond stoked, because I’ve been dreaming of attending culinary school and was told I could use the funding towards their program. I went to the school, meet with the admissions department and was just counting down the days until class started. I wanted to scream on the rooftops about my excitement, but something told me to wait until I finished up my final paperwork. Well as luck would have it, I got an email from my tuition planner that told me that the program in which my money was coming from was not enough to cover my full tuition, well when I scrolled down and saw the amount that was left over, I could literally hear my heart fall out of my chest and shatter in a million tiny pieces.

I can’t explain my disappointment, to be so close to something you could almost touch it and then have it ripped from your reach in a matter of minutes is horrible. To make matters worse, my current job situation makes me sick to my stomach. I am blessed to have a place I can go to everyday and get paid enough to support myself and I appreciate that, but It’s a hard situation and a person can only stay sane for so long.

I usually an upbeat person about life, but right now I feel like I am in a whirl of conflict. I know what I want to do with my life, I've tried to take the proper steps to reach my goals and dreams, but right now I don't feel like I am getting close to the success I've been striving for. Sorry to be such a whinner today, but this is my outlet.

I am bummed, but I am trying to stay positive and find another source to cover the difference. So, we will see!